CRY ME A RIVER….
28 Dec 2011 6 Comments
in LOVE & PAIN | JOY & HAPPINESS, SPIRITUALITY
It is absolutely amazing that while the Christmas Season is one that is supposed to be extremely celebratory, it has become one that is EXTREMELY COMMERCIALIZED and completely thrown off for those who have experienced the loss of close loved ones either within the year, around the holidays, or at any time really. I have also witnessed this inherent sadness, if you will, among some of my sisters who are not in relationships or at least where they want to be in their lives. It’s as if this time of year becomes this measuring standard of WHERE I AM SUPPOSED TO BE or WHERE I SHOULD HAVE BEEN BY NOW… hence probably the reason why this whole New Year’s Resolution craze has taken the shape and form that it has.
I know that for me, myself, and I it’s a very different kind of thing. As a person with these gifts, talents, and skills I live my regrets all year around (when I was a person living with regrets), and now when I experience times and/or moments of sadness I experience those all year around too and not exclusively during the holidays. The holidays have a very different trigger for me. The holidays trigger joy, gratefulness, and cheer. Even though I get a little sad and cry for those who have passed, I still become embodied with a gratefulness and this heartfelt desire to just bring smiles to the faces of others through the spreading of good cheer and yes giving gifts. I just love to give gifts. I think it’s because for me I don’t give EMPTY gifts, but those with SENTIMENTS, VALUE, and deep rooted meaning. To me that is the reason in the first place. One should never give anything just because, but rather BECAUSE… if you know what I mean.
I feel as I am walking this road that the sadness that I used to walk with more often, does not take up space within as before. I know that while I am very much a human being with sensitive feelings and extremely heightened emotions, that the dwelling time for low moments is becoming less and less. Part of the reason for that is because whenever I find myself in that place, I quickly revert my thinking towards all of the things GOD has done for me, and all of the painful situations He has brought me through, and all of the life changing circumstances that He allowed me to survive…including death several times over. I always try to transform my thoughts to the beautiful love my family embodies and the beauty of the hearts of my children. My life is so very rich and fulfilled.
And when things really get rough and I’ve found myself sad to the point of tears, I do what I know I am supposed to do… I CRY THEM… I cry them hard, I cry them loud, and I cry them heavy. And the funny thing is with those types of tears, you cry them in sessions. They start and stop and just start without reason and then stop. In fact, these are those “CRY ME A RIVER” tears that usually put me in the deepest and most restful sleep.
I happen to be one of those people who believes that people should be allowed to SAFELY express and discuss EVERYTHING they are feeling and that there is nothing wrong, shameful, or embarrassing about it. In fact it is the HOLDING IN and HOLDING ON that allows the vibration of the negativity of emotions and circumstances live longer than it should.
That is why communication is so important. When we find ourselves unable to cope with a situation, I’m going to venture to say it’s not only because we are not willing to COP to what we are feeling, but we are also not COMMUNICATING as we should. In this life, especially around this time of year, people are in either FULL THROTTLE ready to take the bull by the horns mode, or lingering on REGRET STREET as a means of self torture. In either case, I say that when you find yourself on REGRET STREET, the best thing to do is cry yourself a river so that you can be carried away by those tears down the street, off the block, around the corner, to a new road and a new journey.
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RINGING IN THE NEW by LIVING REAL TIME in the NOW…
27 Dec 2011 1 Comment
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As the Christmas Holiday has now passed, it did not leave without its lessons and nuggets being dropped in my life, in my person, and in my spirit. I am learning life lessons at lightening speed these days and I believe it is because I am so in tuned now with SPIRIT that I am seeing everything taking place in REAL TIME. It means that I am truly learning how to live in the NOW. I’ve heard the catch phrase over and over and I would venture to say that for everyone it means something very different. I didn’t quite grasp nor understand what it really implied more than being grateful, but I can say today THIS day the gift of LIVING IN THE NOW is being revealed to me and it’s a beautiful thing.
There is a certain level of skill development one must have to live in the NOW and that is the SKILL OF STILL. I am a person who has always lacked patience, for no other reason than I am a go getter who is used to setting her eyes on the prize, making her mind up about something, and going full force until accomplished. It is my nature and my personality. It is who I have always been and a part of who I am. However, it is not all that I am. I am so sold out to GOD and my faith I do believe that anything I can see or believe, I am able to achieve. The yields in my life are very much evidence of that feeling.
In the company of my lack of patience, I have also been cursed with the inability to say no, the unyielding desire to please, be liked, and accepted by others… and last but certainly not least plagued with the ignorance of casting my pearls before swine time after time after time… again and again, ok and yes again. LOL. That is who I have historically been, and who I’ve evolved FROM BEING. I am enjoying and feeling the growth. I am witnessing the change and I am loving every part of the CHANGE JOURNEY and this SHIFT IN CONSCIOUSNESS as well.
At the end of the day I am learning very much so that all of this life and what it has to offer belongs to me. This is my journey and if I can find myself in the savor of the NOW, then I get to make REAL TIME decisions and live a REAL TIME experience that is commanded by my REAL TIME faith, and blessed REAL TIME by whom I walk with and consult on every measure: my I AM.
I keep saying I am growing up, but what I really need to say is that I am EVOLVING UP. My vibration frequency is increasing daily beyond measure and the LOVE of GOD and HIS PURPOSE for me and through me is all that seems to be of importance these days. I LOVE HIM more than words could show and I AM really ENJOYING what He has chosen and deemed the road I should travel.
I am learning patience, I am developing the skill of still, I am being given the gift of silence and quiet observance, and more importantly I am being BLESSED ALL THE WHILE. I now know that the confidence that attaches itself to this ALIGNMENT lies completely in the “BE STILL and KNOW that I AM GOD”… and when you surrender to that STILL, you are not slowing up or being slowed down – but propelled forward to heights you could never imagine.
I used to be the road runner who ran and raced everywhere… always trying to keep up with myself… always trying to make sure I heard the signal to go and just ran as hard and as fast as I possibly could. NOW… I know that as I have traded in my runners for comfortable walking shoes, I am a better athlete. NOW that I have developed the SKILL OF STILL and WALK “REAL TIME” with I AM in this race, my perception of being left by others and pulling up the rear was skewed. The reality is those running in front of me are actually laps behind me and are running to catch up to me. I am WALKING WITH I AM and my decision to do that has actually propelled me ahead of everyone else, in the forefront, and has made me the head and not the tail. So now I know that I know that the race is not won to the swift but to the one that endures. I’ve developed my stamina and my endurance and now I live REAL TIME in the NOW constantly RINGING in the NEW.
WHAT LIES BENEATH….
22 Dec 2011 2 Comments
in RELATIONSHIPS, SPIRITUALITY
These past few days have been hectic, and once again I have not had the opportunity to blog as I’ve wanted nor should. Primarily because I have not been able to sit still long enough to just type what’s on my heart. Posting to FB and TWITTER are so easy because you do them from your phone, while blogging is me sitting down in front of this laptop and saying my peace.
Speaking of PEACE… when I tell you that loving GOD is the most secure, most solid, most fruitful, most beneficial, most trusting, most endearing relationship you will ever have I am not exaggerating. He will never be unfaithful, He will always provide, He will care for you when you are ill, dry your tears when you cry, and yes even make you laugh every once in awhile. He meets all of your needs, your wants, and your desires. He’s the best Father to your children, the best friend you could ever want, and the one who will always give it to you straight with no chaser and the truth at all times. When He sees you moving in the wrong direction, He’ll put you on the path in the right. He defends your honor, fights your battles (and wins them I might add), and won’t let anyone on this planet get away with disrespecting you without letting them know straight up He’s not having it.
I couldn’t love Him more than I do… or well maybe let’s just say I grow more and more in love with Him every day. Every day He meets me with the warmth of His smile as we share the sunrise together. He gives me new ideas, sets up new meetings for me, introduces me to the most resourceful people that I only could have met through Him. He gives me that strength and desire to want to be more and do more for Him. To be better and do better in order that I make Him proud of me. I just want His investment, His faith, His trust in me and who I am to be met with excellence and the fever that would make any Father proud.
He forgives my mistakes over and over again and teaches me new tricks whenever I ask. He shows me how He does things and develops my skills to be and serve this relationship we share to the fullest. Now at the end of all of that gratitude, faithfulness, warmth, and love is what lies beneath.
What lies beneath my savor for Him and all that He’s done, is the flavor of who He’s fashioned me to be from His presence and influence in my life. What lies beneath, to the bone, to the core of the very existence of who I am… is this thirst of the MORE which is now quenched as I live a destined LIFE in purpose and contentment. What lies beneath my entire vow of commitment to Him, His ways, His time, and His journey FOR me is the heart’s desire for something only HE COULD GIVE OR SATISFY…. the physical manifestation of His love for me in the flesh. I am ready, it is time, He’s arrived…. now he will need to announce himself, that he and He come in peace!
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SHIFT CHANGES – CHEW ON THIS…
20 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
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As we begin to bring 2011 to a close it is becoming more apparent that there is a SHIFT taking place in all walks of life for so many people. CHANGE is going to come and it is inevitable whether we are prepared or not. I think that for some of us, the adaptability to changes is not common nor met with ease/grace. I know for me I used to be a person who was completely resistant to change, especially in the workplace. I never adapted well and looking back on my reactions I am not too sure of why that was. I think it is because once I settled into a routine, once I was comfortable in a space and place, I did not like to be bothered or messed with. It’s like settling into a new apartment, picking out the perfect furnishings, and someone telling you to pack your bags and get ready because the plans have changed. In fact, now that I’m thinking about it, I have never been one to do well with shift changes in my personal life either.
As human beings we all have a side to us that is spontaneous, risk-taking, and edgy. Now the degree to which those characteristics present themselves differs from person to person. In that same respect there are those who are less fluid and more rigid, methodical, and organized. Again, the degree to which depends upon the respective person. My nature is unlike the ordinary. I have a creative and artistic mind, I used to be ambidextrous although I write with my left hand (so I’m a right brained individual). I also am very statistical and analytical in my approach to so many things. I guess that would make me an anomaly. (LOL). Nevertheless, I wear so many hats and have made my entire life adjusting to shift changes and upheavals of every kind in every type of circumstance. I have adapted well, although such experiences have not been without taking their toll on my personality. As a result I have become a go-getter but impatient, I’ve been nomadic in nature (never setting up shop in one place for very long), I over commit and I over deliver (thank goodness my perfectionist tendencies don’t leave room for not keeping my word), and I have commitment issues (or so I’ve been told.. it depends on who you ask..LOL).
At the end of the day, I am learning that SHIFT CHANGES are a natural progression and part of the universe’s order of things. It’s right up there with SEASONS which are shift changes of a different kind. I no longer reject change or look at it from the same perspective. I now EMBRACE and WELCOME it on all fronts. I have learned that when I CHEW ON the change that finds its way into my life, I am able to SAVOR all of the FLAVOR of its intended use… that for PURPOSE.
If we remain in our comfort zones, if we don’t push past our strengths and abilities, if we are never challenged to perform beyond our capabilities, if we are never invited to think of those things we never knew existed, if we are not introduced to the possibilities which expand beyond our scope how are we ever to soar to new and greater heights? We are not. The plain truth is that if you are a person who avoids SHIFT CHANGES in your life, then you are running away from the DESTINY that is waiting for you!
WALK THIS WAY….
16 Dec 2011 2 Comments
in LIFE BY DESIGN | DREAMS BY MEASURE, SPIRITUALITY
I know it’s been three days since my last post, but when I tell you I’ve been working completely around the clock it would be no exaggeration. I wrote another book (although it’s not really finished now that I’ve decided to bring in two co-authors), I started a new ministry initiative and WHOA buddy the things that have just been going on.
I am completely humbled and enamored by the few lives that I seemingly have been able to touch with my words. To be honest I just speak what’s on my heart and in my spirit to speak. And truth be told it’s gotten me into more trouble than not (LOL). I am grateful that GOD is using me and I only hope that this time around I don’t fail Him, I make Him proud.
This whole MINISTRY thing is NO JOKE. You’ve got EVERYONE watching your EVERY move, listening to your EVERY word, and holding on to EVERYTHING you do. I am a perfectionist by nature and a critically analyzing Virgo which compounded by my self-imposed pressures felt by religious doctrines and leadership expectations only makes matters worse. I have had this crazy need to LIVE UP TO expectations, starting with my parents, when I was married my husband, my bosses at work, my children, those to whom I minister, … if you can name it just add it to the list. Historically I grew up with the issue of low self-esteem, which breeds an adult who becomes a people pleaser without the courage to say NO.
As I am progressing into the next level of my life and the scope of my ministry is being enlarged, I want to be very careful to not enter into this phase with the same mindset I used to have in times past. I know that I’ve never felt comfortable with the RESTRICTIONS or UNREALISTIC EXPECTATIONS of being CALLED if you will. Not to say that the WORD of GOD and how we should live isn’t the most ideal instruction for practice, but there is a certain judgmentalism that comes along with it and I believe a lack of understanding towards the “human-ness” if you will of those of us who are members of the ELECT.
While I can assuredly say that I can’t live my life as a heathen and make this profession of faith, I can say that to have a PERFECT WALK is something that even striving for brings a pressure and a shame when you fall short. This time around I think I’ll just be true to myself and who I am. I won’t look to justify any sins that I may or may not commit, but admit that only through GOD’s grace and mercy could I ever live with being NON-PERFECT. I will continue to surrender to the will of GOD for my life understanding that the process is a perfecting process where in the end I will hopefully come to a place where who I am is sufficient for us both (me and Father).
I am learning that talking the talk is so that you can strengthen your ability to walk the walk. I am learning that I don’t have an original thought and that GOD in me has purposed every thing in me including my likes, dislikes, desires, and passions. I will not allow the guilt measures or brow-beating of religious dogma to convince me that loving my NEO-SOUL and R&B LOVE BALLADS is sinful, as is my joy of enjoying quiet jazz, lounge experiences, and concerts with music and vibrations of love flowing between the artist and the crowd. I know that I have to own WHO I AM and WHOSE I AM made me WHAT I AM and everything I like so that can’t be wrong.
Maybe just maybe this pressure I’ve put on myself to be perfect instead of perfected has been the very block to realizing the one and true thing about this calling, this destiny, and this life in relationship with GOD and in fellowship with my brothers and sisters…Maybe just maybe this pressure I’ve allowed others to impose upon me that I try desperately to live up to and through is the very mountain that has been impossible for me to climb because it was never meant to be climbed, only passed by… Maybe just maybe I’ll silence the voices of those who want to criticize every little step I take, and live in the vibration of those who know what love is, understand the power of what it does to another living soul and just enjoy the fuel of that instead… Maybe just maybe I’ll go ahead and let go of all the “STUFF” (mine and other people’s I’ve foolishly accepted and taken on as my own) and just WALK THIS WAY.
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TURNTABLES…
13 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
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I am very very late with posting today. Originally, because of yesterday’s fiasco with my bringing forth the WORD I was going to post and discuss the notes from my sermon. However, since I will be ministering the message on next week, I decided to hold back and wait until then to ignite the follow-up discussion. As always I got extremely busy, things got hectic, and next thing I know today turned into one conference call after another and one deal after another… not to mention I’ve got a heavy investor meeting tomorrow that I’ve really been preparing for the entire day.
This road called life comes with so many detours and new traffic patterns that not only do you have to be a skilled driver to content with the road and weather conditions, but having a sure knowledge of your destination is paramount. How many times have you set out on a road trip only to find that the detours threw you off your entire plan? Well things that happen in our life and strange circumstances can do the very same thing.
It’s so funny because believe it or not, my latest detour (the crashing of my hard drive not two weeks ago) has proved to be and IS PROVING TO BE the best thing in the world that could have EVER happened to me. When I tell you that I went from a moment of feeling like the world was ending, to that of acceptance, to that of ok I’m Hustle Mama I can recover, to my present sentiment of recover what??? It’s time to re-discover!!! Not only did what happen absolutely HAVE TO HAPPEN, but I am absolutely GRATEFUL throughout my heart and soul that it did.
That is why we must learn to see things through our third eye first above all things and then the natural eyes to just process. Truth be told, if I were to reflect back on the events using my third eye I would say that the loss brought me larger gains than I have achieved during all the months of this past year combined.
I get to do BETTER work, with a STRONGER SPIRITUAL VOICE, with a more engaged GOD RELATIONSHIP DRIVEN PERSPECTIVE. I am being perfected in nature, character, spirit and purpose. I am learning, teaching, and improving my business, my ministry, and my goals. I am shifting more into the ALIGNMENT with HIM that GOD has purposed for my life since before my birth.
Going to the next level may be exciting, but the journey to getting there takes FORTITUDE… and when life starts to throw me curve balls, I now have the skill of working my TURNTABLES like a cut master and can put that thing DOWN (to rest that is).
I am on FIYAH and I feel it… FIRE SHUT UP IN MY BONES… Today, I did something I said I wasn’t going to do for awhile. I wrote another book. Yes, today, this day, in one day, I wrote another book. And as I begin to edit and design the cover I am extremely pleased because it is the first work ‘after’ the loss and it’s worth more than all of my other work combined. WHY? Because it is the first step and the beginning to the new ME.
The Beauty That Lies Within
12 Dec 2011 3 Comments
in LIFE BY DESIGN | DREAMS BY MEASURE, SPIRITUALITY
We are a society that has placed so much of our captive attention upon the things we consider beautiful. We have this whole gleaming eye thing going on seeing things and people of this world as beautiful or ugly, good or bad, strong or weak, up or down… all of these tempered polar opposites if you will.
I am one who really believes that BEAUTY IS AN ACTION WORD, it is a verb and not an adjective but a state of being. I believe that beauty is an attribute and an essence of the most pleasing things. I find nature to be beautiful and yes I have even been witness to beauty even in the midst of the most horrific circumstances. I guess that’s why the sentiment “…Beauty is in the eyes of the beholder” is really more profound than we give it credit for.
I don’t like it when I hear people have been hurt because they grew up the brunt of jokes or teasing by others. You’d be surprised at the number of adults who have maintained that type of unkindness. I don’t really understand why we ever have to comment on other people’s looks when we are describing all the things that are wonderful about them… as if their looks or perceived outer beauty gives them brownie points. A pretty face may get you to the table of a negotiation, but if you don’t have the skill to play you’ll be out of the game before you get in. A pretty face may get all of the guys to look at you and even want to be with you… but without the skill to maintain a qualified relationship worth having, what value do you then bring to any partnership? I’m not knocking people who are beautiful, only trying to get others to understand WE ARE ALL BEAUTIFUL and NOT ONE PERSON ON THIS PLANET IS MORE BEAUTIFUL THAN ANOTHER. NOT ONE!
People look different and as far as I am concerned that is it. We all have things going for us which set us apart from others and are our strongest assets or features and yes for some the need to have plastic surgery to compensate for what they personally desire to have and was not given is an option.
As a girl who was teased most of her childhood about her way too skinny body, buck teeth, and long straight hair that wouldn’t hold a curl I have been very careful to not allow the “TRIGGERS” to have an affect on me even at this stage in the game. I really want to be admired for my beauty but not what I look like, because truth be told for years I never thought or considered myself pretty much less beautiful. It is the beauty that comes from my relationship with the Creator and the way I feel as a result of that wholeness.
At the end of the day we are absolutely CREATORS of the most beautiful masterpieces…. OURSELVES. We are all a work of art and definitely limited editions. It is the basis of our human condition and we should never forget the value of that! Don’t forget to join me tonight for my empowerment call at 9pm EST, the details are to the right.
Taking Heed To The Lead…
11 Dec 2011 Leave a Comment
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I am learning more about the master/servant relationship with each passing day. There is an unyielding dynamic in servant leadership whose trusted measure is the concept of giving and gifting. Let me explain. I remember as a powerhouse in corporate America I had to literally work my way to the top and sometimes fight an army for the simple things I was and should have been entitled to. I can not imagine what it is our men go through having to fight through people, systems, only to have to come home and fight WITH us.
There is a lot to be said for deception and confusion, for distraction and mayhem. In the end all those aforementioned things are all sought to be adversarial to the necessary components for success and purpose: peace, grace, joy, and happiness. Isn’t it absolutely astounding of how much you accomplish when you are FEELING GOOD about where you are, or FEELING GREAT about who you’re with? I don’t know about you but I have always been INSPIRED to do the unthinkable and most unimaginable things when I am in a relationship. There’s something about being in one that just fuels and jumpstarts a person into the things that they are most passionate about.
I would venture to say that when we are very adept to our keen sense of KNOWING things and as we begin to foster and develop more of those indicators that serve our SPIRIT man, the sky is the limit to what we can have. When we really begin to take heed to the lead of GOD as it pertains to our life matters, we place ourselves in a power position of walking with unspeakable joy, peace and favor that only those who walk with the same are able to recognize and share in. I call it the GLOW OF LOVE… the high pro glow that comes when you are sold out to purpose because of being so in love and secured with your GOD relationship.
Coming to the place where we can control our thoughts to be under the subjection of what should LEAD ALL THOUGHTS, peace, love, compassion, forgiveness, understanding, grace, mercy, optimism, wholeness, etc. we ignite a charge towards having EVERYTHING we could ever want fall into place.
When our MINDS take heed to the lead of only those thoughts which would fuel its greatness, when our SOULS take heed to the lead of only that ONE who feeds and fuels it, then the SPIRIT of who we are ends up taking heed to the lead of loving kindness, and the excellence of measure we were born with and are entitled to live in each and every day.
So today, for this day, try as you may to rest in the peace and tranquil bliss of the heed of unconditional love and acceptance for who you are so that you can confidently and so energetically take those steps toward who you were always meant to be.
NEW LOVE: When GOD IS ALL in, up, and down IN it….
09 Dec 2011 8 Comments
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OK. I’m in LOVE so it’s just time to admit it! Over the years I have done a lot of learning, sharing, preaching, teaching, and anything and everything else you could think of. It’s amazing how we grow as people purposed for a thing. For those who are called the growth walk is PHENOMENAL …at least from the reflective perspective. Trust and believe that while you are GROWING THROUGH your growth, it is not always a feel good time and quite the opposite.
There comes a point in time DURING your process that you really do see the move of GOD way before your “looking back” and hindsight 20/20 vision vantage point. I’m realizing that the more I am in alignment, the more “real time” is my witness to the things of GOD and the move of GOD.
I am really starting to grow up and come into my own. Sometimes I feel as if I’ve wasted so much time in my ignorance, but I know that is not the truth nor of GOD. Time is not a waste if the events of how time is spent drives you to PURPOSE, BETTERMENT, IMPROVEMENT, and EMPOWERMENT. If those same events end up being used for the HEALING, EDIFICATION and SUPPORT of others then that’s an even greater reward of your life’s journey.
As I prepare to deliver the word on this Monday, I am excited to see what the LORD has to share with me. I must and am always first partaker of ALL OF MY MESSAGES and I believe that is what lies at the heart of my being able to so freely share with the world the sentiments of my heart and the craziness that’s on my mind (smile).
As I enjoy being me, I am learning that I am evolving into BEING ME and it’s a journey that I willingly signed up to take. I asked GOD to show me myself and although I wasn’t prepared for what I would see, I am able to smile through. I am enjoying the process of His PREPARING ME for what I can’t see, of HIS making me ready, of HIS pruning me… sound familiar???
When GOD IS ALL in, up, and down IN a thing, the process, the transitions, the outcomes and the yields are always going to be beyond our scopes, capabilities, and understanding. After all He is GOD. If you haven’t been able to tell by now, I have fallen IN LOVE and it’s the most beautiful and life changing experience. I have returned to my FIRST LOVE. THE LOVE I was present and with before I ever was and became.
There’s no better feeling in this world than the euphoric high of being IN LOVE. I’ve LOVED the LORD since coming into a relationship with Him. I must admit that it is a relationship that when it was new I pulled out all the bells, stops, and whistles. I was giving 110% and I allowed nothing and no one to run interference. As the years went on I began to take my LOVE for granted and He never complained. In fact, He watched me make a mess time and time again of the relationship when I had a hard head. LOL. There were quite a few times I was unfaithful, and yet He forgave me. I took Him for granted, I tried His patience, and I wasn’t always giving and generous of myself, my time, my efforts, my attention, my nurturing to the relationship as I used to be. I wasn’t always as submissive, humble and respectful of Him and His position and authority in the relationship as I used to be.
I’m so glad that WHO I CHOSE TO FALL IN LOVE WITH loves me back enough to love me through my shortcomings and growth during the relationship. I am so grateful for His patience, His understanding, and His acceptance of my faults. I am so grateful that the things He has seen fit to forgive me for He has never thrown back up in my face. I am glad that although I once hurt Him, He still trusts me as if I never have, having FAITH in WHAT WE’VE BUILT TOGETHER and seeing this entire thing through to its expected end and purpose.
Yes I AM IN LOVE YET AGAIN… but I will tell you that while I have loved often, loved much, and loved freely… I have never been IN LOVE like this before because I am finally willing to be IN LOVE with MY FIRST LOVE, the LOVE who has brought out the best in me, who daily makes me a better person, who provides the safety to cry, rant, rave, and who comforts me. The LOVE I am most able to trust because I know it is PURE and UNCONDITIONAL. I AM IN LOVE like I’ve never been before, because I opened my eyes to the LOVE that’s been waiting for me to TRUST HIM with my heart and soul… trust Him with IT ALL… And now that I DO, and I HAVE, I AM.
I Co-Wrote This Song awhile back and it’s a perfect fit to the sentiment of today’s post. Enjoy a listen! My Song “BECAUSE OF YOU”
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CALLED TO BE ……
08 Dec 2011 4 Comments
in LIFE BY DESIGN | DREAMS BY MEASURE, SPIRITUALITY, STARTING FROM SCRATCH
I hear over and over again from friends, family, and even congregation members, how will I know HIS voice? How do I hear the voice of GOD? What does it sound like? I don’t know if GOD talks to me. I remember thinking the same thing during my early years. With all of the “enlightened” church folk with the GOD told me this and GOD told me that, I used to feel like whoa I can’t wait until He becomes audible to me too.
I have even slipped up a time or two (very few times but still on occasion) when I said GOD told me… and I really catch myself when I say that because what I mean is that GOD spoke to my SPIRIT. Man doesn’t realize that there are VOICES TALKING TO HIM ALL DAY LONG. MANY MANY VOICES.
There is a saying in the word that my sheep hear my voice and I know them and they follow me. That would lead one to think that an audible speaking voice is what is being implied. But when you break down the meaning of the words in that scripture, and the etymology of the words there is so very much beauty of more than any simple implication of just an audible command.
I would venture to say, and this is only MY OPINION and how it works for me… that our true measure of CALLED TO BE is done aeons (earth ages) before our ever coming to be. I have said in my previous writings that we are living this life backwards where the end of our journey has be pre-destinated as our purpose is for the ministry during the journey. That is why my entire life’s platform as a HUSTLE MAMA (Proverbs 31 Woman) is LIFE BY DESIGN and DREAMS BY MEASURE.
Our lives have been designed for us by the Chief Architect. Now being CALLED TO BE is something each and every one of us is. CALLED TO BE by being called to BEING, existing, being born. … The birthing of a ministry. The birthing of a soul’s purpose. The birthing of a destiny.
With all of these new found LIFE COACHES, RELATIONSHIP COACHES, MINISTERS, PREACHERS, and TEACHERS, it’s no wonder that people are very unaware or yet tuned out if you will to the VOICE OF GOD. How in the world could any of us know His voice among so very many voices constantly resounding in our ears? And let me not even begin to talk about the many voices of US. Yes, we all have multiple personalities within our person and yes each and every one of them have a voice and if I’m going to keep it real, each of them have their own face as well (LOL). If you don’t believe me I’ll just name a few… there’s the voice of reason, the voice of intelligence, the voice of pride, the voice of ego, the voice of shame, the voice of envy, the voice of confidence… need I go on?
So with all of the world’s influences (media, TV), church’s influences (leadership, fellow congregants), family and friends influences, and then un-healed past and traumatic influences it is no wonder that folks can’t seem to get themselves together.
For me, I learned how to HEAR THE VOICE OF GOD by learning His language. To recognize you must be fluent. In order to be fluent, you must study the WORD OF GOD for that is the language He speaks. I learned that the difference between HIS VOICE and all the other voices (yes including the heart’s voice and the mind’s voice smile) including our own (…lean not to your own understanding); is that His operates on a completely different frequency than all the others.
The only way to tune in to His frequency is through your SPIRIT. GOD speaks to His people through their SPIRIT. That is how He communicates. So when you are being held captivated by the ebb and flow of powerful and dynamic speakers who are completely charming and charismatic, remember that those are all things that are good for the person… but when GOD speaks it is all things good for the soul.
Once you develop the thirst for fluency you will realize that the language of GOD was something you thought you needed to learn, when in all actuality it was something you’ve known all along. He knew you from before the foundations of the world, calling you from your mother’s womb. You are not LEARNING the language of GOD nor DISCOVERING your purpose or destiny… you are REMEMBERING IT!
